Showing posts with label Arizona. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Arizona. Show all posts

Monday, June 11, 2012

Mommy & Me #5

Sadie loves to "play" in the sprinklers.  And since it's hotter than you-know-where outside...so do I, really!  Mostly she just sits there and enjoys when the water comes over and hits her, then she waits with obvious anticipation for it to come back again!!  She's so funny!






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Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Shifting Paradigms

Yesterday I went to WalMart. Iused to love WalMart...when I lived in Eugene. But there's something about a big city that causes all the riff raff to come out of the wood-work. And they all seem to shop at WalMart. Come on, you've seen those websites of the ridiculous pictures of people taken with camera phones at WalMart. I don't go to WalMart anymore...except that the closest branch of our bank is in the WalMart that is about 2 miles away from our house. So yesterday I went to WalMart.



I don't know if it had to do with the emotions of the week and Sadie's birthday and sad memories, but I started looking at those snotty grungy low-income kids all running around their mom in the motorized wheelchair and I started grieving again for what my child isn't. The thoughts of "it's not fair" started creeping back in. But then it hit me: what in the world would that woman, who can't even walk well enough to get herself around WalMart, do with a baby like Sadie?! And all of the sudden my perspective changed. I realized that it's not about how I got the raw end of the deal, but about what Sadie got out of it.



Sadie got two parents who love her and accept her the way she is. We have the energy to deal with her irritability and her insomnia. We have the means to support ourselves and all of Sadie's needs. We have the intelligence to ask the right questions and find the right people. And we have the support of family and friends who love her even without ever meeting her (or us). All of that isn't fair either...but not in the same way.



So yeah, I still struggle a little with jealousy that my kid can't really use her hands, doesn't self feed, and is nowhere near moving independently from one place to another. But I am thankful that God gave Sadie to us and not someone who couldn't handle her or maybe wouldn't love her as much. And probably for the first time in however many years I've lived in Phoenix, I walked away from WalMart feeling satisfied with my experience there

Saturday, May 29, 2010

The STATE of things...


When we brought Sadie home, she was on hospice care because nobody thought she'd make it through the week. Her brain was mush, her kidneys (and liver?) weren't working properly, she couldn't suck or swallow, in fact we were told if we chose not to feed her that was okay. I still remember the nurse who came over that first day to do paperwork with us. She told us that what happens in cases like ours is that often the baby will aspirate liquid somehow and end up getting pneumonia. Then probably the pneumonia will continue to haunt Sadie's lungs and she'll end up dying of that. It was a pretty grim time...yet, to us at that point, it sounded good!

Obviously Sadie exceeded everyone's expectations and was "graduated" from hospice on April 2. We were then referred to, I believe, 2 state-run organizations: AZEIP and DDD. This is where it gets confusing...

Arizona Early Intervention Program (AZEIP) is who we saw first. A girl named Kara, who looked like she was 22 years old, came over and asked me a bunch of questions about Sadie. This happened on April 14. She wanted to hear Sadie's story (which gave her chills and made her get a little teary-eyed), asked me what my goals are for Sadie, what my concerns are, and had me sign a bunch of release forms so that they could access doctor's records. I also gave Kara a letter from Dr. Wendy (our pediatrician) stating that Sadie has been diagnosed with a seizure disorder and is currently taking medicine for these seizures. The reason I gave Kara this letter is because, having seizures makes Sadie automatically eligible for DDD (Division of Developmental Disabilities). What?! I know. I'll explain in a minute.

The next week, a lady named Lloydchell (yeah, I asked her to spell that for me!) came over and asked us a bunch more questions about Sadie's development. This was April 19. She was evaluating if Sadie has significant delays, or if she's right on. To be eligible for AZEIP you have to be significantly behind in developmental milestones in order to qualify. And if you do qualify, you're eligible to receive state-funded services for physical therapy, occupational therapy, speech, etc. Lloydchell said that the speech-pathologist needed to come out and also evaluate Sadie before they could make a final decision, but that according to her observations, Sadie was not delayed enough to be eligible. This is also what Dr. Wendy thought. But remember, Sadie has seizures, so she's automatically eligible for DDD. I promise, I'll explain what that means.

Jenny, the speech-pathologist came over April 29. She was a great lady, and actually had had a baby the same week Sadie was born! She found the same thing as Lloydchell, and told us again that Sadie would probably not be eligible for AZEIP's services. But it was encouraging to hear her compare Sadie to her own baby and talk about what her baby is and is not doing yet. It sounded like Sadie's pretty normal about all things speech...well, at 3 months old at least. I posed the question to Jenny that many of you are asking, "So, if Sadie isn't eligible for AZEIP, then what do her seizures make her eligible for?" Up until this point I was under the impression that AZEIP and DDD were the same, just AZEIP focused on kids 0-3 years old. Wrong. AZEIP and DDD are different, but every kid under 3 has to be evaluated by AZEIP before they can even get to DDD. Even though we have a letter stating that Sadie has seizures, AZEIP had to waste a bunch of time evaluation her development only to find that she's not delayed enough to qualify for services, which doesn't matter anyway because all along she's been eligible due to the seizures! And if you're keeping track, you'll realize that at this point it's been 2 weeks since we've seen Kara and 4 since we were exited from hospice.

So what happens now that we've seen Lloydchell and Jenny and been told by both of them (and Dr. Wendy, don't forget) that Sadie's development isn't delayed enough to qualify for services? They have to write up a report, give their findings to Kara, who then has to hand over the case to DDD...since Sadie is automatically eligible for their program. Why couldn't this just be done in the beginning? I don't know...seems like a waste of time doesn't it?

I called Kara when we returned from Oregon on May 17 (over a month from when she first came out). We had received a letter in the mail from Kara while we were gone telling us that "Lauren" didn't qualify for services from them, but because of her seizures, would be eligible through DDD. (I think Kara forgot to proofread her form letter...maybe she had a bunch to send out that day.) Kara told me that she had given everything to DDD that day and that we should be hearing from them by the end of the NEXT week (which was this last week that just ended). I didn't want to wait anymore, but it seems that this is how the wheel turns when dealing with the state, very very slowly. Meanwhile, Sadie has missed out on 6 week's worth of therapies she probably could have benefitted from.

I spoke with Kara Wednesday, she told me she had talked to our DDD coordinator that day (her name is Annie), and that we should hear from Lloydchell and/or Annie no later than Monday to schedule a time to come out. See, that's what's cool about hospice/AZEIP/DDD, they come to your home. We are also going to see a psychologist at PCH (Phoenix Children's Hospital) who will probably give us therapies through the hospital, but we have to GO to the hospital to do that...and you know how Sadie feels about the car! The next day Lloydchell called me!! I was thrilled. I really feel like these ladies want what's best for my child and my family, but their hands are tied by this bureaucracy of state-run programs. They understood that I'd been waiting a long time to get started with a program that I'd been told from the beginning my daughter was automatically eligible for, and they got the ball rolling as soon as they could do anything about it.

We're meeting with Lloydchell and Annie (the DDD coordinator, who apparently is our golden ticket in this program), June 3. I am really excited, let's get Sadie in some state-funded therapies (this means not having to deal with insurance companies!) and let's get her rolling, grabbing, and learning to suck on a bottle. And let's do it all in the comfort of my own home!

Stay tuned for more updates on Sadie's therapies and how DDD is working out for us.