Being part of a special needs mommy group is great, but it also has its down sides. This year I experienced loss with 3 of my special needs mommy friends (okay, so one I don't really know...but I feel close to her because her daughter reminds me of Sadie in a lot of ways). It is sad when a child dies, more sad than anything I've ever experienced...even if I've never actually met that child.
So, today I am thankful for my children. I know Sadie may not be with us forever, and the loss of the child this week reminded me that things can go downhill fast, but for now she is healthy and happy, and for that I am thankful. We don't spend time in the hospital with seizures or pneumonia or other things and I am thankful for that. Sadie is only on one medication and I am thankful for that. She is growing and eating and sleeping and is going to start school (hopefully) this month and I am SO thankful for that.
Ezra was born healthy, with no birth complications, and I am thankful for that. He is big and strong and smart and I am thankful for that.
I also know that just because things are healthy and happy now, there is no guarantee that they will be that way forever. So, I choose to be thankful for what I have each and every day.
I know that not everyone who reads this blog has healthy children, but I hope that you can still find something to be thankful for regarding your children. I hope that you are thankful that you have him/her/them, even if life is hard. Because, I'm pretty sure life would be even harder missing them each and every day because they are gone forever.
Love this post because it is so true! Sometimes I have these, well, crazy thoughts where I wish the baby girl baking in my belly will be born with special needs. I don't know why. And frankly, there are a lot of thoughts I cannot explain since losing Broxton. But there is something extra special about caring for a child with special needs. And although I know I truly want nothing more than for baby to be healthy, I think I just miss that connection. The extra care. And, even though I have had a pretty rough week, I am BEYOND thankful I was given 2 years and 4 months with my precious baby boy, because otherwise I wouldn't have known the love I do today. And I wouldn't know YOU! :-) ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteThis totally made me cry (I still have so many hormones raging through my body!!). You are right, though, even though I have days when I think it'd be so much easier if Sadie could walk, feed herself, and potty train, I do appreciate the special connection I have with people because I care for a special needs child. I guess this is a piggy back thankful post... I am thankful for all the people I get to know because my child has special needs. And that means YOU, Kristi!!
DeleteWhat a blessing for sure!
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