Tonight I was looking at my blog stats and realized that this post is my most popular, meaning more people have read this post than any other post on this whole entire blog! And why?
Because it's about Microcephaly.
When you realize your kid has for-reals brain damage, this word almost always pops up. Because when your kid has brain damage caused at birth, the doctor will measure their head, and you will inevitably see that percentile drop. Then you will come to the internet, and the mighty Google, and type in microcephaly looking for anything that might be reassuring, anything that might give you some hope that your kid's head isn't going to be small and funny looking.
And up pops my blog post.
I just reread this post. It seems so ignorant and silly looking back on it. But at the same time, I remember being in that place and having those worries and not knowing the outcome of my child's life, development, looks, anything! And based on the popularity of this post, it seems that I'm not the only one in this place.
I also looked at the picture at the bottom of that post and was shocked that my big girl was once that small.
What's weird is that when I look at pictures of Baby Sadie, she looks way more special needs than I think she does now. Granted, I didn't see it then, and maybe I don't see it now either...but maybe also I just don't care anymore. Still, when we go out, people don't stop and talk to us about her disability, they comment on her hair. They tell me she has gorgeous eyelashes. They ooh and ahh over her cuteness (how can you help yourself?? She is SSSOOOOO cute, right?).
Nobody ever notices her small head. Even I don't notice it...until I try to put a hat on her.
Babies in hats are cute. But one size fits all/most doesn't apply to my child. And that's okay most of the time because who wants to cover up all that gorgeous hair anyway, right?
Sadie has a small head. Most kids with CP have small heads. It's a big deal until you realize it isn't. And I hope that my post about this is helping ease the fears of other parents out there who are just beginning this journey. And I hope that they too will realize, in time, that it's really not that big of a deal.
What is it about your child that used to really bother you or worry you that you now don't even really think about?